I'm surprised I made it to a week. I apologize to anyone who didn't see my last post stating I was going to delete my journal for a week. I left it up for a day in the hopes that everyone would see it, but some missed it and I am sorry to have worried you. I got a ton accomplished this week, which was the whole point of the deletion. I took a `news break' as well and it felt good to mentally get away from everything for awhile.
I missed you all, it was difficult not being able to read my friends list. In the 4 years (September 17th will be my journal's 4th anniversary) I've been here I have never deleted and it made me realize how integral LJ has become in my life.
One of the many things I managed to get done this week was registering to vote. It can be a pain in the ass to register absentee and dealing with the American Embassy, but it is a relief to have it done and with time to spare (they recommend registering 45 days before the election, I hope any Americans living abroad reading this also take the time to register).
Another is to try to sort my health problems out. The health system here doesn't make that easy. In America they are often too keen to give expensive and sometimes unnecessary screenings and treatments, but socialized medicine here in Britain means that they are often too conservative with them. I'm starting to wonder if my near-constant sickness may be connected to pains I've had in my pelvis and chest; pains that have been present for years, but I have not been to a doctor about because of a mixture of neglect and financial reasons. During my first visit to a locum (stand-in) doctor here she rightly chastised me for waiting for so long and yet she did practically nothing to figure out what they are. She seemed nervous, didn't even touch the areas to see if she could feel anything that my untrained hands might have missed, and often referred to a book when I told her my symptoms, which wasn't comforting. She gave me no answers. I know that doctors have to protect themselves in these litigious times, but this was ridiculous. She mentioned blood tests and a x-ray, but never followed them through. She did however sign me up for an ultrasound and several weeks later I have finally found out the results. I have borderline polycystic ovary syndrome, but that still doesn't fully explain it or the pain in my breast.
I have another appointment with a different doctor now and I'm going to insist on a full examination, x-ray, and blood test. This doctor is a friendly Indian woman who is senior dr. instead of a locum and I get a better feeling from her, she has already been more helpful and informative when I've spoken to her on the phone.
Lastly, while I was ill I could hardly get out of bed for 3 days due to fever and fatigue, but I left my iRiver on shuffle and let the music take me where it willed. Listening to music while in a feverish half-dream state can be quite transporting and while I watched the last of the summer sun filter through my window I constructed a mix cd in my head. I put it together this week and have it here for anyone to download if they're interested.
Best listened to in bed, with eyes closed. Or feverish, as I was, but I wouldn't recommend that. :)
(right-click and save target as)
nomi - the girl is ill [111 MB, 79:28 minutes]
Will do, more than likely it's nothing serious, but I want to at least know what it is.
It may just put you to sleep at work against your will, it's verrrry relaxing. I'm sure you recognize a great deal of the music as much of it I discovered through you. :)
glad you are back... and, as a woman who has been plagued for the last year with mysterious pains from an ovarian cyst... it does get better... while I don't know the specifics of your situation, castor oil packs and herbs have been helping me, along with more traditional treatments.
i dreamt about you last night!! it was some surreal "end of days" landscape and people had to make do with the basics while just trying to get buy... i dont remember very much but i saw you in this sea of people and i rmember thinking there's nomi from livejournal!:)
weird how lj seeps into our dreams:)
i'm glad youre gonna be persistent and make sure to really find out what is going on with you physically, nothing is more draining than worrying over what could be wrong...
glad youre back and i'm downing your little compilation:)
oh wow, I love hearing about my appearances in other's dreams. at least we both survived armageddon. ;)
I've dreamt of a few people on lj, not you (yet) though.. come visit me in the dream realm!
thanks, hope you enjoy the music. :)
Thank you! I am enjoying your journal as well, I'm pleased we found each other.
& cheers about the mix, I wasn't sure if it would be to people's taste or not as it's exceedingly mellow, but that's appealing while in a feverish state. :)
There's synchronicity, or good timing or coincedence!!
I was just going to mail u to say the week was up but there u were in my friends list. Welcome back. you were missed (but you know that already.) And of course when you came back you brought us a gift. (downloading as i type). Hope you get sorted soon
You were keeping track! It was strange to delete my journal, it has such a huge record of the past four years of my life; I couldn't imagine erasing it all. It wasn't any different not being able to post because I tend to only post about once a week anyway, but not being able to read everyone else together on one handy page was weird -- I felt disconnected. But, I seriously needed to get some things accomplished last week and I achieved that without any distractions.
Hope you enjoyed the gift. :)
Hurray, a mix! =) It's just started playing as I type this.
Missed your unseen presence this past week. I saw your note but was unsure why you were temporarily deleting yrself. Sounds like a nice vacation except for the being sick part ... stay well, I hope!
I hope you're enjoying the mix, I'm sure most (if not all) of the artists are familiar to you. It's hard to introduce new music to people like you and asphalteden. ;)
At the time of my notice I was feeling a bit panicky about everything I wanted to get done so I didn't really go into it or open up comments. It was a bit abrupt I guess, but it needed to be done.
I just read up on your Pokemon adventures. My friend's son is totally into Yu-Gi-Oh! now after his parents blew tons of money on his previous Pokemon obsession.. all those young minds devoting so much time to memorizing/making up pages of rules. Strange. Then again, I was a Magic geek. :)
I was goofing around and looking at mutual friends of other friends, and I clicked on you -- and discovered your beautiful CD. (which I am now downloading) Thank you for making something new, even when you are feeling unwell.
(PS. Would you mind if I added you on my list of people to peruse?)
i love that there's a band called the wind-up bird. :)
and so so sorry about your illness... i hope this next doctor proves to be a good one and you get the medical attention you need to learn how to deal with this...
it's nice to have you back.
I stumbled across The Wind-up Bird by accident. I was downloading from someone on soulseek and saw a folder called "The Wind-up Bird" and it piqued my curiosity so I downloaded it.. so pleased I did now. :)
Thank you, I have a better feeling about this dr.. I hope I am right.
s'good to be back. :)